Thank you for your VERY kind words! I do not feel guilty, exactly for the reasons you described, and yes I do feel that one can get trapped in the same cycle as those who are dealing with addictions, the frustrations, enabling, etc. I do not have hard feelings towards those who alerted the moderators. I did not intend to cause division here at this very close knit community and I believe that they acted out of concern and goodwill, and for that I am grateful. I love EVERYONE here. We all have our struggles and victories. We are all different, and that's okay.