I couldn't even make this stuff up....what has been happening to us recently. We are now in the Alberta Children's Hospital for our OTHER son....my beautiful 2 week old son Kai. Please pray for us!!! I am not overly religious (well, not at all in fact) but I do try to be grateful for what I have and always approach things with the belief of 'it could always be so much worse'. I have always been intrigued by the saying of sons paying for their father's (and mother's?) sins, hence the biblical quote in my title. I don't know what bad things I or Jeff have done in our lives but seriously....I am a little tired and sad about our medical difficulties as of late. Sunday night Kai didn't feed well. He had been having some GI issues as well (I won't go into detail except to say no newborns' poops or floofs should ever smell that bad!!!) Monday I started wondering if maybe he had thrush as I had pink eye starting the Monday prior and had been on drops that entire week. I called the Early Start line which is specificly for medical advice for babies under 2 months of age. I mentioned he had a fever of 87.4 and as I laid him down in his bassinette while still on the phone, he had a seizure. They dispatched an ambulance right away and we were taken in. Jeff rushed home from work to care for JJ. At the hospital, they wanted to run three tests....urine test (to test for kidney infection), blood test (to test for infection in the blood) and a Lumbar puncture (aka Spinal tap) to test for infection of the fluids surrounding the brain. The urine test came back positive so everyone breathed a sigh of relief saying, ok no big deal.....kidney infection and while serious, certainly the least serious of the three. I was scared to death of the negative possibilities that might occur from doing the spinal tap and just about said no, because clearly, it was just a kidney infection. I opted to do the test regardless, JUST IN CASE. As the doctor was sitting with Jeff and I explaining how it is only a kidney infection requiring 4-5 days stay in the hospital, the other prelim blood results came back. The doctor went very still reading them and I knew...I just bloody well knew. Long story short....Kai has a kidney infection, a hernia, possible kidney development issues, infection of his blood and bacteria in his spinal and brain fluid - bacterial meningitis...a very serious condition...often resulting in death for neonates, and if not death, potential for hearing loss, mental retardation, developmental delays, seizures...you name it. We'll have to watch him for the next 10, 15, 20 years to make sure he is 'normal'....or it could happen as son as tomorrow. So we are in the hospital, Kai and I for the next 3 weeks minimum. He had an audiology exam yesterday (little hairs are still moving in both ears which is good), and EEG with about 20 wires connected to measure and monitor brain waves (I had the nurse take a pic of him....heartbreaking). Today is ultrasound on his kidneys and a dye test to see if there is backflow from his output back into his kidneys. As soon as he has 48 hours of negative blood cultures, he will get a pic IV....which involves threading the IV from his hand all the way up his vein to his clavical...because his little 2 week old veins blow out so quickly. I am sososososo tired of all of this. I have only started to tell friends...and in a way feel better being able to post anonymously. It is WAY too emotionally draining to have to go over the same story again and again and again....and everyone wants to help and come visit and all I want is a bit of sleep, to hold my baby and to not have to hear him cry or hooked up to a cathedar or the oxygen tubes up his nose or the incessent beeping of the blood HR machine, Ox saturation levels and IV. And of course....I just want him to be happy and healthy. I have always tried to be a good person....I have my downfalls and faults and can be a complete b*tch when provoked....but I am not malicious, I am not mean, I am not cruel....so why the heck is this happening to my babies??????