I am a SAHM with three boys. Twins, M and D, age 3. And the baby, G, age 1. Today, D was diagnosed with type 1. I am reeling. All the research I am doing has me terribly frightened. I know this is not the end for us, but a very drastic change in direction. But I just have this fear that I am not capable of caring for him. I have depression that I have really been struggling with lately. I'm terrified. I've been doing some research on my own and it's so overwhelming. The majority of his care is going to fall to me. I just don't know if this is something I can handle. Tomorrow we are going to be spending the day learning how to care for him. I know that most of my questions will be answered then. And I know I can only take this one day at a time. But some of the stuff I have been reading .... Minimal 4 finger pricks a day, probably more. Dietary restrictions. Injections. Keeping high sugar foods on us at all times, in case of a dip in blood sugar. Having to tell him that he can no longer eat the things he loves, while his brother can. (We aren't going to let the other boys eat them in front of him.) And he's so little. He's just a baby. He can barely understand when it's time to pick up his toys. And this changes his life. This is something we will have to do every single day for the rest of his life. I am so scared. And fighting tears. I know that it could be worse. I know that this is treatable and manageable, and that we should be counting our blessings because of those facts. But I am so terrified that I'm not going to be able to do this.