So as a kid on NPH, this is something Kira doesn't get to do anymore. And for me today, since we had such a hard time this morning, it's kind of being representative of so much. This morning Kira got some craisins, and started eating them right in front of me, giggling away. Craisins are very, very high carb; so this was a rather big deal. I had to sit her down and talk to her again about eating when she hasn't had insulin to cover it. About how it's not okay for her to just go around picking things up and eating. It was a hard morning with tears and upset. One thing that we did before this whole diabetes thing was that she got to lick the bowl when we made things. I'd rather not argue about the egg thing. I want to talk about the issues of not being able to spontaneously eat food. And about measuring the immeasurable... like how DO you measure or insulin for that little bit of stuff she has licked out of the bowl? How do you measure a little handful of super-carby craisins? What new and special routines around food have you created to help your CWD feel good about food again? Have you created any? What would this look like, these food rituals that, by definition, are forced to include "how many carbs in that?"? What do you say to your child when he or she cries, saying, "I just wish I was normal!"? Do you take the coward's way out like I did today, too? I'm making the cake while she's gone so I don't have to face her sadness about not getting to lick the bowl--a time honored family ritual for my family since... well, practically forever. Sadly, one of the extremely, extremely few that I even have to pass down since my family was the penultimate "dysfunctional" group. I feel sad, defeated, and cowardly today. Any thoughts on new happy food rituals would be really, really appreciated.