I'm new here...Our story isn't that much different from anyone else's so the nutshell is that my now 8 yr old son (was 7 when diagnosed) was hospitalized at the end of October 2013 after a trip to urgent care. I had called the pediatrician's nurse to talk to her about a referral because I thought he was depressed (lethargic, confused, eating all the time, tired...etc) about some family issues. Started listing everything and then the EMT in me stopped and gasped, "Oh my gosh, he's diabetic!" and she agreed it sounded plausible and to get to urgent care. BG was 495. Went to ICU with DKA. The day after diagnosis, when he was still in ICU, he asked me if it would always be this way, having to count carbs and give shots. I told him it would always be this way. But that we would figure it out and he would be okay. He asked to see the granola bar I was planning on eating. It was twenty carbs. He asked how many carbs he was supposed to have for a snack. I said it was fifteen and asked him if he knew how much that was. He broke the bar into half and then into quarters and gave me a quarter and said I could have the quarter he couldn't have, and started eating my granola bar, looking at me. He then asked me to show him how to check his own blood sugar with the meter. He has been checking his own blood sugars since he was released from the hospital after his diagnosis. I work weekends and my parents watch the kids (I'm a single mom). The first weekend, he let my parents give the shots, but after that, he said he wanted to learn how to give them himself so he didn't have to have them do it. I was wary, but let him practice on my belly with some extra syringes and the next day, he was giving his own insulin. A few weeks later, he got the Humalog and Lantus pens. At around that point, we (my parents and I) started letting him prep the pen, dial in the dose and show it to us before injecting. Within the first month of his diagnosis, he was essentially covering all care of his diabetes care except for figuring out the carb counts on homemade food. We ALWAYS gave him a carb count and made sure he calculated it to the right dose. We kept meticulous logs for about two months and always double checked everything as far as dosing. He always checked his levels when asked and remembered to do what needed to be done. After about two months, we got the hang of things, and while we were still very precise on dosing for food, I didn't always write it down when I was at home with him during the week (I home-school him and his younger brothers). My parents always write everything down and it's available for me if I am questioning a dosage or not sure why something doesn't seem right. Cameron has always been very trustworthy so there have been times that I give him a number for a dose, he will add in the correction if needed, and verbally tell me what it all adds up to, then prep, dial and inject the pen. He has always been very methodical about everything being in a certain order so letting him do this was a logical next step for us since he hadn't ever given us problems about it. Cameron is high anxiety. He has had a lot happen in the last six months. Before his diagnosis, we traveled back east where he visited his dad and I was out of the country for two weeks. Then he was very sick when we got back for three weeks and then he was diagnosed. Holidays started up three weeks after discharge from the hospital and then I started school in January and he went into childcare two days a week. I'm seeking help through his pediatrician for his mental health but in the meantime.... A week ago, I asked Cameron if he'd taken his Lantus that morning because I hadn't seen him do it. He said he had. I re-questioned him and he insisted. I let it go for a few minutes and then went back and said I was fairly certain he hadn't done it and he replied that maybe he had forgotten and just in case, he'd go do it again. I finally got out of him that he hadn't given it, and that he had forgotten and was afraid I'd be mad. We had a long talk about it and I told him that he had broke our trust and I, my parents, and the childcare provider would need to double-check EVERY time he used the pen for insulin from now on. He seemed to understand and didn't give grief about it. His levels were off on Wednesday, he was high. Then I was in school all day on Thursday and wasn't there for any of his meals. His childcare took the blood sugar he reported and dosed him accordingly for his meal with a correction. My parents had him for supper and did the same. He was still high today. So I was sifting through his meter to try to figure out a pattern. He didn't check it all day yesterday. I had checked it at 4am Thursday morning and he didn't check it again until 8:30pm that night. Sixteen hours. He fell into a sobbing mess when I showed him the meter and said that part of it was just that he had forgotten and the other part was that he was so tired of the finger pricks and needles and didn't want to do anything anymore. He had a terrible headache from being high and said he didn't want to feel this way ever again, but he was just having a hard time being a diabetic right now. So now, we are back to triple-checking everything, from glucose checks to pen dosages before and after he does it. Did I totally screw this up? I'm on my own here. I've been waking up nightly and checking his levels, I work part-time and am in school full-time, and am the sole provider for all my three kids, ages 4, 5, and 8. His independence was so beautiful and I never shoved it on him. He insisted on it and was doing such a great job until now.