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I would like to tell my story..hoping my mom comes across this & reads it (:

Discussion in 'General Discussion' started by _brittanyy_, Nov 27, 2008.

  1. _brittanyy_

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    i just read somebodys story, and i was hoping to share mine and hopefully my mom comes across this. :)

    i went through the, what some people call, rebellion stage not too long ago, right after i changed insulins, which was about 4-5 months ago. i would eat secretly without checking or correcting, or if i did eat secretly, i'd give myself a shot without the correction. i also would tell my mom my sugars were perfect, when they would be the opposite. i dont really know why i did it...i just got fed up with it all. because i felt like my mom would blame me for my highs, and get mad at me because of it, so i wouldnt tell her my real sugar, to keep us from gettin angry with each other. and the eating, i only did that because my dr. suggested i lose about 10 lbs, even tho i'm the perfect size for my body height. so, i'd eat healthy with mom & daddy, then eat what i wanted, what they wouldnt let me have. then, one day, i realized what i was doing to my body. i realized that i dont wanna grow up, and be blind by im 40. or have a leg or two amputated. i wanted to be like a normal, healthy adult. so when my mom found out i was "cheating" again, she told my dr. he told her to talk to me in a normal tone, blah blah, you know lol. so, we sat down that night. it was my daddy, her, and me. and they gave me the same lecture as normal, the one i got about 2x a week maybe, because of my bad habits. and right then, at that moment when i seen the look in my moms eyes about me needing to be healthy, i changed my mind. i told her i wouldnt cheat anymore. i would do what i was supposed to do. i wouldnt tell her false sugars. i've never seen her, in my entire 15 years, seen her face light up as bright as it did when i told her that. and since then, i havent, except for one time. and when i did, it showed, lol, but i admitted to it, right away. i hated keeping all of that from her. at the time, it seemed like the best thing to do. but now i've realized how much better i am when i do it all correct. my a1c from the old insulin was 8 something. my dr. wanted me to be atleast 6.5. i'm at 6.0 since then. :) extreme improvement. i'm doin much better now, and i can tell my mom's a completely different person. in a way, i think it made us stronger, as a mom and daughter. showing us that we can accomplish anything together. i'm very greatful for her. she stuck with me throughout the whole journey of this. and now, on avg., my sugars run from 70-140, thanks to her :) i honestly dont know what i would do if she would have gave up on me, and not stuck with me, and didnt hope for the best. there is no telling where i would be at. or, where she would be at, as a matter of fact. this whole stage i went throught let me see how precious life is, and how easily parts of my healthy body could be completely shut down, because i was lazy, or irresponsible in my teenage years. i also realized how big of a role my mom plays in my diabetes. i knew how big of a role she played, but not nearly this bbig as i know now. its a struggle for me to do it, and i cant imagine what she goes through. she's always worrying about me and my sugars. wondering how the food will affect me. i'm extremely grateful to have such a great mom who really loves me. infact, she just told me something earlier in the living room, that made me get a different outlook on diabetes. she said "diabetes is such a precious disease. God only gave it to the certain special people He knew could overcome it and handle it." it made me think, outta all that has happened, me thinkin i could let diabetes control me like it did, that God really does think i'm special enough to control it and handle it. It made me appreciate everything a lot more. I just wanted to tell my story, hoping that it would help somebody and possibly prevent them from doing what i did. :) thanks
     
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  2. kiwiliz

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    I think you are just wonderful - very special - and obviously very loved. Well done!:D Your Mum and Dad must be very proud.
     
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    Awww, I have a tear in my eye!! You are a sweetie! You know as moms, all we want is for our children to be happy and healthy! There is no worse pain than seeing your child suffer and struggle. I am sooo happy for you both!!

    P.S. Why don't you post this under the Parents of T1 Children where there is a lot more "traffic"...it makes a wonderful post for Thanksgiving :).
     
  4. Colleen

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    Actually, I too teared up reading this. You have a special bond with your family. You have been blessed. It took me a lot longer to realize my family was only trying to help me. Glad you saw the light before it was too late. If you ever need to vent or talk we are here at CWD. God Bless you on your journey.
     
  5. Colleen

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    Maybe if your mom doesn't come across this you could print out the page and give it to her for Christmas as a gift. If my child gave me the note you wrote I would treasure it forever. It would make a great gift.
     
  6. _brittanyy_

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    thanks everybody :) i just really wanted to share my story, because i've ben reading so much on the teen board abt the dr. asking if the boy had went into "teen rebellion" and i figured if i told my story, it could let other people see it and possibly prevent it
     
  7. StillMamamia

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    Thank you so much for sharing your story:cwds:
     
  8. _brittanyy_

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    you're very welcome. thanks for reading it :)
     
  9. MrsBadshoe

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    That was wonderful. Just wondering if there is anyway to make the print smaller. These old lady eyes were having a really tough time reading the print.
     

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