I hate to ask this but i am going to because i need to know and i know you all will understand. Since DX how many out there has had to have some help by use of meds with the stress, overwhelment, depression from time to time on top of working(those who do) and family responsibilities? There are times when i am good no problem can handle everything. Then there are times i feel like i am FIGHTING with numbers!!! I see a high number or low and i feel sick to my stomach or feel my face getting bright red!! They sometimes drive me insane!! Sometimes D and Endo team makes me feel inadequate as a mother and sometimes it makes me feel challenged to do the best i can for my child. Sometimes i wonder do i need a little something to take the edge off then theres days when i would not dare think of such!!! I think this pump thing is going to be great though once we get through all the trials, training, and right dosing etc. , but until then whew theres alot to learn and be done!!!