I am not looking for sympathy and have been preaching this for years but for whatever bizarre reason my body just can't handle the out of range levels. It doesn't take much. I got home from work and was irritable beyond belief figuring my sugar would be fairly high. I was 134. I took two units of humalog and now 1 hour later I am just starting to feel better. Basically anything over 95 pre meal is way to high and destructive. I can't keep living like this as its complete suffering for me. I understand most people struggle to some degree with diabetes but my problem seems to be at a whole other level. I am becoming more and more desperate to pursue a islet transplant. I do suffer with depression but righty so. Every time I eat and take a shot its like a war going on inside my body. Many people suggest counseling but what can anyone really do for this problem? Trying to keep my premeal glucose between 80/90 is like trying to fly a kite with no wind.