We've been at this for 2 1/2 years now. I finally feel comfortable with making changes to my son's insulin needs, I'm pretty good at eating out, I don't stress about him at school--I feel like I've come so far. However, in the past week or so, I feel all of the old fears from the first months coming back to me. I don't know why. I recently read a column on dLife about a mom who lost her 13 year old son. He was diagnosed at 3 years old--pretty close to the age my son was at dx. And, of course, I've seen the heartbreaking post from the mom on this forum who lost her daughter last year. I've been obsessing about them. I know these things affect all of us--how do you get through these random "fear fests?" I've also been morbidly interested in finding out mortality rates from hypo in kids, but haven't really found anything. I'm hoping to find a relatively low percentage that will help soothe my fears. Does anyone know this number? I've also been so worried about my other kids. I've seen so many parents on here with multiple CWD. I always feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Does anyone know the risks for siblings of CWD? Does anyone else go through this from time to time? I went to bed last night and just cried--feeling all of those pressures and fears weighing down on me again. What do you do to combat these times? His numbers have been good lately--and, like I said, I feel pretty competent with his care. I'm usually pretty positive and relaxed about his D. Why is this happening now???