I hope that dealing with this gets better. Somedays I can barely make it. I cry every day about it. I try and think it is just a number and can work with it but then it doesn't always work. I hate giving my little man shots. I just feel soo bad. I know it is saving his life. He never sees my cry. I wouldn't do that to him. I hate the meter too. I think I have lost 10 pounds since he has been diagnosed. I just seem nervous all the time about him. I watch him like a hawk. I don't want to be like that with him. I want him to be a little boy whose mother doesn't hold him back.