Okay so I have to put this out there, I need an opinion of someone who gets it. I got the following e-mail from a new friend who doesn't know me that well...her son and my daughter were in preschool together last year, and we have only played a handful of times...she is great and I like her a lot, so she came over today with her son to "check on me" so read this: Okay, I just wanted to let you know: I'm worried about you. This is, indeed, a very stressful time - but it should be a point where you're starting to level out and instead I find that you're twirling and whirling into what seems to be a self-feeding eddy of stress and panic. You have had a lot on your plate for several weeks now and your support system, while wonderful, isn't terribly hands on right now (not that it really could be because of all the issues involved). I'm not in any way preaching to you, judging you or trying to tell you what to do but I want to highly recommend that you quickly make an appointment with your doctor to discuss options. You are an incredibly strong woman which can sometimes work against nature in this type of situation because you're trying to "handle" everything and not allowing yourself to acknowledge your overwhelming situation. Yes, you are highly competent, extremely intelligent, strong and vivacious. But you are not superwoman, no matter how many superhero movies you've watched. I hold you very dear and I'm afraid that if you don't find some way to help yourself over this immensely huge hurdle it's going to adversely affect you and your family. Whatever you may need from me, I'm there. But I do think you really need to invest some time with your doctor to see if there's some short-term options that can help you (and, thus, your kids) through this tough time. Please forgive me for saying so, but I want you to be happy, healthy and strong in all the right ways. All my love. So I'm pissed. WHO says not quite 3 weeks is enough to get over such a life changing event? YES I am stressed and anxiety filled, I just learned my son has a chronic disease that can be managed but changes his life majorly, I spend my day putting out fires, he's hungry - he's low - he's too high,he has keytones a stomach ache .... I just had to hand my 6 year olds life over to a school nurse who we barely know and although she is amazing...she is not his mommy and will she really notice what I would notice? Is she watching him like I do? OF COURSE NOT! She has 153 kids! I only have 4! He has been away from me at school for 4 days and he has had 3 lows (in the 60s) at school and several more at home...every time the phone rings and it's the school, my stomach ties up in knots....I don't want to NOT talk to my friends/family but I am to the point I feel like they just don't get it! someone just told me yesterday "be happy it's not MD" NO, REALLY!! Let me go thank my lucky stars my 6 year old has to have 3 injections and tons of finger sticks everyday, oh and he can't pig out on Halloween, etc...I get what they are saying but PLEASE!! Am I wrong? Should I be "over it" "moving on" ? I have come a long way,I am not crying at even saying the "D" word, I am able to tell the story without sobbing, I don't feel like I want to throw up everytime I eat a sweet, I am able to eat again...It is true, my girls are acting out and at times I don't have the energy to deal and I give in when I normally wouldn't..but I play with them and cloth and feed and bathe them! Oh and by the way, I get up to check BG at 2 am, we have no family here and I am exaughsted...did I mention I have 4 kids under 6?? So sorry for the vent, but am I wrong do I need help or is this normal? Do I just smile and say everything is great? I need input!!!! Thanks!