Once again another sleepless night. Before going to bed you peek in his room to see if everything is ok. You look at the blanket to see if it’s moving. Wondering if today was his last. Hoping that you did everything you can. Lying in bed praying and crying that he will live a long and healthy life, and that one day they will find a cure. Waking up every hour because you can not sleep. You get up and walk to his room, you tuck him in and make sure everything is ok. You check is sugar around 3:00 am to see if his sugar level is normal hoping that it will be, so you can feel a little better so you can sleep. Looking at his face and thinking of all the things that he has been through you want to take his place, and let him live the normal life. Wondering at times why did this have to happen to him. You feel and do the same thing every night thinking that you will get used to it, but you never do. You stay at home with him and don't go anywhere because you don’t want to cheat your self out of a day with him. This is some of what I go through every night just wondering if anyone else goes through the same thing. And what they do to relieve the pain.