First, thank you to everyone for the responses to my original post. I am feeling a bit better-it varies from day to day. I wake up feeling very depressed about it and feel it gets better from there. I feel like I am so confused about this whole thing-will I ever feel like I "get it"? the nurse calls everyday for the #'s and says it is fine and changes things here and there but I still feel so confused. My daughter has been having lots of lows-like everyday. They took her off of the lantis for now since I guess she is in the honeymoon period. she still has lows and it is so nerve wracking. We have a pool and she is very active otherwise. so we have been trying to play around with the swimming and yesterday I didn't even give her any insulin with lunch and by bedtime she was 56. I don't really know what I am asking here.. maybe some reassurance that someday it will be a bit easier and make more sense? I have heard it gets even harder after the honeymoon period and that scares me a lot... Also, I know I am supposed to be doing bloodchecks after 2 hours of no eating but it seems like with snacks and everything I have to be like a drill sergeant to get that to work out , to get a true blood sugar..Meanwhile my 7 year old and 22 month old also need attention and I am headed back to work Monday. I really really hate diabetes and want to scream that from the rooftop at this point... thanks for listening..