After 9 years of walk this D path with my child I've learned to live in the here and now. I advocate that. I remind myself of that. When my brain strays to the future I reel in those thoughts. Now I am asking for you to talk to me. Help me sort things out Friday someone I consider a friend shared that had she really known what a lifetime of having a D souse involved she would have never married her husband (T1). She may as well have punched me. It hurt and shocked. This is a couple I have respected. Married 18 years and raising teenage kids I watched from a far thinking it they could handle this anyone could. They had always given me hope for my own son and any future family. For her say that has me so conflicted. I've felt sad since.