I should really change my screen name to "freak out queen"!! As some of you might remember I have been having a hard time getting my husband to see where I am coming from and how all this is affecting me. And I feel like he is just going day to day not giving it a second thought. (which I know is not true but that's how he makes it seem to me) Last night I decided there has been enough silence between the 2 of us and I initiated a conversation about everything that is going on....Well, in so many words he explains to me that I am dwelling on the negative and the fact that my daughter has D. I asked him about how it is affecting him and how he's dealing with it and he tells me that there's nothing to deal with, that I should accept this and move on. I can see how it is easier for him to do so because he is gone all day and doesn't get home till I'm already well into making the kids plates for dinner and have already done maddie's sugars and insulin. How can he just be so nonchalant about this? Is it because he's not the one who is counting carbs all day and administering doses of insulin or telling a very hungry 5 year old she ca't have this because she's already had insulin or her sugar's too high and has to have something else intead? And I hate to think it but is it because Maddie isn't his biological daughter? I am about at a loss with all of it, and I know this is a very dark time for me and that doesn't help matters but I know that this won't last forever and we will be okay. But for the time being I am so tired of being tired, lonely, and stressed and feeling like I am the only in the boat with only 1 stinking pattle!!