Have read quite a few threads about how to deal with sadness/why me in CWD lately. Have even responded to a couple. Have gone through it with my son. But, last night was the worst. I think I may have inadvertently triggered it. I sometimes watch the dLife show on Sunday nights. If my son is in the room, I try to point out the hopeful stories of adults with D doing great things. Last night, it was a pro hockey player from Dallas. He watched the story, but then started to get upset and into his "I hate diabetes" mode. I tried to point out how much this guy has achieved and how his diabetes does not stop him, blah, blah, blah... but nothing impressed him. At bedtime, he started to cry...saying he doesn't want D anymore and why does he have it...I'm sure most of us know the drill. But, instead of quickly recovering as he usually does, he cried for almost an hour. I laid with him in bed and held him and tried to do my best...but nothing would console him. I wonder if seeing that hockey player, who has had D since he was 5, just made my son realize that he too would have it as an adult and just reminded him that D wasn't going away instead of inspiring him like I hoped it would. I feel like I should point out these role models to my son...but maybe it just reminds him that D is something that these people couldn't shake...and that he won't either. My attempts at inspiring him just backfired. So, when he finally felt a bit better...every time he said something about D that he hated, I'd come up with a happy thought or memory for him (swimming, stop signs [he loves street signs], strawberries, SpongeBob, his cousins, the beach...) until he finally laughed...I went into my bathroom and cried two tears for every one that he shed. Yesterday, I was giving advice to someone here on how to deal with this...today, I'm the one with the broken heart. Of course, as I write this, Daniel is laughing and having fun with his brother...all sadness forgotten. But there is another crack in my heart from having to hold my son again as he cried and not be able to make it all better for him. Damn this disease.