I'm getting more than a little overwhelmed right now. Nick is still all over the place in his moods and behaviors and it's exhausting for everyone involved. It looks more and more like we're facing a dx of bipolar, and I'm nervous about what the future holds in terms of medicines, behavior and his success. I'm so scared for him! At the same time, I'm scared for the rest of us, when he gets aggressive. He hasn't tried to seriously physically hurt us yet, but he gets so rough with Lydia and Caleb if he's arguing with them (hitting, wrestling), and I'm worried about him going after Adam or Linnea, who he could really hurt because he's bigger than them. I know he's scared during these rages and that he doesn't want to feel out of control.He always gets sad after he's angry, and tells me he's sorry, which makes me feel even worse. He also had his first depressive episode a few weeks ago while we were all sick, which is just as exhausting and even more heartbreaking. He just cried and cried, told me he was a bad person and was bored and tired all the time. Oh and the icing on the cake is the blood work Ella got done last week...She's anemic again, which could be nothing...but it also makes me scared we're headed into an Evan's relapse I don't know...we go back in a week, and then go on vacation and then Ella's birthday. Thanks for listening...just overwhelmed.