I keep saying we're doing good... and during the day I feel Ok with all this. The school nurse is doing great with Owen's D care, and he has adjusted to all the poking and such. He has always thought the BG check is kinda cool (my little science guy) and he wants to do his own shots now so I guide him and push the button. I think it makes him feel in control to do the stick. So he has adjusted very quickly to this(..although he is obsessed with food right now in what I think is a real unhealthy way and he acts as if he is starving all the time.) But, I don't think I have had a good nights sleep since Owen was dx'd 3 weeks ago. I am so tired. I stay up late waiting to test. and then sleep a couple hours, but I am always waking up between 4-5 am and laying in bed just totally overwhelmed by this D thing. That it is is never going to go away...it's not like being on antibiotics and we get to stop after so many days. I don't know what it is about that time of the night. Maybe it's that my whole family is asleep and I am alone with my own thoughts...during the day, you just have to do what you have to do to get through the day. At 4am your just alone...and here is this big overwhelming D. shadowing over me. I am crying as I write this...Does that feeling go away, I just want a good nights sleep.