For 2 years after Stevens diagnosis with diabetes I was to put it mildly, obsessed. I ate, drank, slept d. I was a SAHM, my older son was in school full time so I was here and I did diabetes care. I would write down carb counts on paper. Fill out log books with all kinds of strange things: Stevens got a cold today, Steven has gas pains today, went to McDonalds today, etc, etc. After the initial shock wore off and Steven started tolerating shots better I thought it was all fairly easy. I couldnt understand what others were making such a big to do about. i only knew a couple of other people that had kids with d but they would complain how their kids A1Cs were high 7s low 8s no matter what they did. Well during that time Stevens A1Cs were in the low 6s high 5s quite often. I would listen to these people and sympathise but inwardly Id feel smug and wonder why they couldnt do this thing, "damn this is pretty easy actually!!" But now 5 years down the road I have no smugness left. I couldnt possibly keep up that level of emotion, that obsession, the anal retention. It would have driven me crazy and it did for awhile. I would test in the morning and hold my breath till the meter beeped. If the number was in range I was happy that day, if it was high I was upset and angry with myself. To the people in here that micromanage their childs d. I admire you but also worry about you. Please dont get lost in this and lose sight of yourself. You are important too and deserving of a life outside of d. To the other parents like me that have had to step back a little and accept some higher numbers and higher A1Cs I just want to say, its ok, it really is. I think if you are doing your best and coming in here to get advice and reading how to hopefully get things better its ok. you cant be in the trenchs all the time, you have to be able to walk away for a little while or hand over some of it to someone else and do more for yourself so that you can come back with a renewed sense of what your doing it all for. And if youve read this far and are thinking, "what the heck is she getting at"??!! Well its probably just another rambling thread by one who has to take something that could be explained in 10 words and make it into a 100. I just want peace for everybody and know that you are pretty special to be doing this stuff.