Letting go - this is hard!
Well, today was a first for me. Two of Connor's friends from school came to our door right after lunchtime to see if he could come play with them in the neighborhood and go for a walk. In the past, I've only let him go where I can see him or I'll walk with him and make sure I know exactly where he is at every moment. I made an impromptu decision to let him go with his friends. How could I tell them "I'm sorry. Connor has diabetes, and I'm afraid to let him go with you?". It would have made him embarrassed and different. So, I grabbed his diabetes bag from school (slings across his shoulder), and added an extra juice and my cell phone. I gave him quick instructions on how to use the phone.
I just called Connor, and he's having a great time with his friends. One of the boys is in his class and already knows a lot about diabetes from me coming to the classroom, testing in class, etc. He helped Connor to answer the phone, and I asked how Connor was doing, where they were, if they're having fun, etc. I also made sure to have Connor drink a small juice box after they walked up the hill and around the neighborhood. I'll keep checking on him periodically, but this is a BIG step for me to let him go play with his friends without my direct supervision.
I think this is good, but it feels so strange that he's hanging out with the boys in the neighborhood just like every other kid. Gosh, did I just let go? A tiny bit? Big scary leap for me.... I know that Connor is going to be so incredibly happy that I let him go play without me today. Just the boys. Sigh...growing up.
Mom of Connor - 10, T-1, dx 11/6/06, MDI, Novolog & Lantus
Mom of Grant - 7 (not diabetic)
Brian (husband) is 38, T-1, dx age 15, MDI, Humalog & Lantus
"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break." -Chinese proverb
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You, too? Thought I was the only one.'" - C.S. Lewis