OT-How Pathetic Am I?

[austin_calebs_mom]

So I let one of my ex's (Josh) back into my life. We dated for over a year til he dumped me last Feb for a woman online. We had no contact until Aug of '08 when I took 2 of his cats. Two weeks after that, his gf broke up with him. Which lead to him and I being 'friends' on and off when we were both single. When my ex bailed out on me after Caleb's dx, Josh and I hung out a lot more. About a month ago I finally told him to leave me alone. I'm a last resort friend for him or when he wants something. He's still friends with the woman he dumped me for so when it comes down to her or me guess who he picks. So I told him I didn't want anything to do with him. That lasted 3 weeks. I ended up seeing him Sun night. I'm so messed up. I don't pretend that he wants me for anything but you know what even though he says he cares. How can you love and hate someone at the same time? I'm at the point now where I long for someone to want/love me-whether it's real or not. How pitiful is that?

[Brensdad]

It's not pathetic to want to be loved. I'd say it's a rather critical part of being human.

[Becky Stevens mom]

It's not pathetic to want to be loved. I'd say it's a rather critical part of being human.

((hugs)) Kayla, you deserve the best hon. And it is perfectly normal to want to be loved for yourself

[Sari]

you know what - when you are confident in yourself, that's when you will find the type of guy that you want who will see the confidence in you.

Hold your head differently and feel good about who you are and the whole world shines with you.

I know it sounds really corny, but I really believe you have to like who you are before you ask someone else to like you. Be comfortable with who you are because it's that "real you" that someone wants to fall in love with.

I do believe that it is when I got myself into that strong, confident state, is when I met my husband.

Keep you chin up - it all comes together eventually.

[hrermgr]

Ditto to what Sari said.

[StillMamamia]

Sari said it perfectly.
Many hugs.
And you're not pathetic at all. There are times in our lives when all we want is to "feel" loved...different from "being" loved.