I need to moan to someone!!!

[stressedmum]

Hi,
My 11 year old son was diagnosed as type 1 in october last year.
It's been such a hard few months, i feel like i have been on a rollercoaster of emotions that just won't stop. Life seems to have become a constant circle of appointments, visits, phone calls and stress and worry. My son is putting a brave face on everything at the mo and won't talk about anything, his schoolwork is going down hill and so has his behaviour. (i think mine would to!!)
He doesn't like anyone knowing about his diabetiesand gets really angry when i need to tell someone.
And i think most of all i am so frustrated because all i want to do is make everything better for him but i can't.
Sorry to moan but i don't have anyone other than his diabetic nurse to speak to and she is always too busy to have a long talk to.
Does it get any easier or does everyone feel the same??

[kel4han]

HI, welcome, it is okay, I think we all feel like this in the beginning. I am type I diabetic myself, so you would think that would take away the questions, worries and concerns, but when my 6 y/o was dignosed in December, I was losing it. I was obsessed with "numbers", counting, and FEAR for the first 3weeks. It does get easier, though you have to stop asking yourself questions that cannot be answered first. Such as why? why her/him? how? what now? future health? That is the first obsession I let go of becuase I realized there is not a reason/answer. Its hard to hear that is okay right now, becuase in your grieving mind it just IS NOT okay! But each day will bring a better understanding and you will feel better. This forum helps tremendously, we all have been there, and understand completly the range of emotions. Hang in there, we are here for you.

[stressedmum]

Hi.
Thankyou. :)
I really feel though that i am just playing at this. I have been given all this info which i have read time and time again, but i guess i really don't feel as though i know enough. I feel as though all the time i am just playing guessing games with my sons health. And it really doesn't help that nearly everyone that i have spoken to about my sons diabeties knows someone who has had major health problems due to diabeties eg eye problems, ciculation problems, kidney problems. And that terrifies me.
Reading through other threads last night it seemed as though everyone else was talking a foreign language. I didn't understand a lot of what they were talking about, and i feel as though i should know.
What are the pumps that some people are talking about?