"before Diabetes"

[allisa]

Lately Ty has been very emotional....finding old pictures of himself and crying because "this was when I DIDN"T have Diabetes".

Every once in awhile I get a new reminder of how much the disease affects him. If you just saw him with all his friends you'd NEVER know....he is a happy happy kid.....but under the surface....it does get to him....

Her's hoping for a cure soon....

[hallenbeckfamily]

Oh thats soo sad!! My neighbor (he son age 8 Dx at 3) just started to put pics back up on the wall. When they moved here she never put them up cause it made her cry to see him happy and healthy pre-d dx. She can look at them now. But how sad your son must be inside,what a tender hearted sweetie!! He just wishes he was like he was in those pics. He is just in a diff way now and a way that requires work to stay that "way". Oh give him a big hug for me,poor guy!! Jennifer

[lynn]

That is so sad. I hate diabetes.
I'm sorry your son has to go through this. I'm sorry you have to watch your baby hurt so much.
Lynn

[Mom2rh]

I have a hard time looking at pics of our trip to Mexico last January...he was dx'd right after. It breaks my heart.

Your poor sweet son. {{{hugs******

[selketine]

I think maybe in this way it is easier on us who have their kids diagnosed as babies or toddlers - they do not remember their life before diabetes. William never considers the "pre-diabetes" days and it did take awhile before he even realized that we all didn't have diabetes along with him! (hey, us parents of little kids have to find some silver lining I guess).

I have a 9 year old and I can imagine how devastating it would be at first for him to get diabetes. It seems like so much work and fuss where there wasn't any before - my heart really goes out to your son.

[Rachel]

What a heartbreak. Maybe you can find comfort in knowing that your child emotionally strong enough to actually confront and verbalize the pain of the diagnosis, something that will help him so much in the long run.

I agree with Carol the ones diagnosed don't have this problem. I told this story on another post ... but our son Will told me that it was when he was a baby that he was on shots of insulin. Ok, so that was 4 months ago. Clearly a 3 year old has a different concept of time. :cwds:

[bethdou]

Poor guy! Poor Mom! {{{hugs for both of you******

Meghan hasn't said anything yet about "before"....but she really still doesn't say ANYTHING about D if she can help it. I know it's in there somewhere, though - I can't imagine it not being inside her.

Once again, another reminder of what our kids have to deal with and how much diabetes STINKS. :(

[Mama2H]

Hailey talks about life "before diabetes" about once a week :( It is an awful moment that we go through and I do my best to try to help her through it and hope that it comes less often.

[beckybuckley]

We go through the same things. My hobby is to scrapbook and it took me a long time to put together a book for my mother-in-law --- from our trip to visit last summer. The week after we got home, she was dx'd. I finally worked on it this week -- I think I owe my growth to this forum!!! I don't know what I'd do without you all now!

[cassandra]

i was dx at 7, and while i was still a kid, i remembered what it was like to be a non-d but as the years add on, it fades away and it just seems like it was always there. i can barely remember my non-d years now. i bet it is harder for the parents than for the kids. or at least that is how i see it now

[zimbie45]

It is very hard for those moments about " life befor diabetes" .... Charlize too has this conversation melt down about 1x per week... THE first few times it broke my heart.... And i ended up sobbing for hours ( when she was not around ).. it still breaks my heart, but now i dont sob.. we just sit donw and try to talk about all the good things that diabetes has done for us, things that would nto have happened... like the great friends we have met. the fun things we done like the diabetes walks.... She gets happy after that, because we have ment some great friends like bethdou.... charlize calls megan her big friend with diabetes... lol I know i like it cause i have met all of you...

[Haley'sMom]

I cry every time I see a photo of Haley before she was diagnosed...every time. And, she tells me about once every other week, how the other kids are so lucky because they don't have diabetes. I told her that when she was born, God picked her to get D because he knew that she could handle it. That she was was such a strong girl. That she was so special, he picked her over all of the other kids. I know how hard it is for us, as parents, but I guess we (those of us who don't have D) don't realize how hard it is to actually have D. My daughter is a pillar of strength...as are all of our children.

[JanetM]

Interesting that you all should mention this, as it's happened to me (lamenting the days pre-d for my daughter) but I've never told anyone as I didn't think they'd understand--not even my husband.

When Maggie was diagnosed, I had to hold it together--I was as you all were: emotionally loaded, but nowhere for it to go. I had to get through those days with so much to do, to learn, to retain--just to survive. My husband had had his breakdown when I called him from the doctor's office. I suspected my day would come.

That day was particularly trying--shopping, watching the clock, caught in traffic, going to miss the almighty meal that NPH depends on, is she low? please god don't let her be low, I think I'm lost and I don't have a cell phone, oh please don't let this be happening. Keep it together keep it together, just drive.

When we got home, I went into the bedroom and randomly picked up a notebook on the nightstand and began to flip through it. It was the journal of our trip to Europe with my Mom and sister a few years prior. Descriptions of outings, and food and . . . omg we can NEVER do this again, omg this life in this book is OVER. An indescribable feeling began to was over me, I felt sick, sad and I felt like my head was about to explode. Finally the tears came fast and furious, and it dawned on me that I was grieving.

It still hurts to think about life before diabetes. I've never asked Maggie about it, she's never brought it up. We just keep waking up the next day and doing it all over again--as different as it is from moment to moment.

Thanks for listening.

[lisamomtotwins]

I was just talking to my mom about this, we call all those pics BD (before diabetes) when we didnt have any worries .... :( It stinks! Hailey is such a happy little girl though and adjusting so well, she is my hero, so brave and strong.

[A&Ds Mommy]

Wanted to send you a bighug; sorry that your little boy is going through this. DH and I have said that I guess we are lucky in a way that Dylan was diagnosed at such a young age that he really won't know anything different as he gets older.

[A&Ds Mommy]

I am sorry I meant to say "little girl" not boy :confused: .

[tjbear]

My son is turning 13 in March. He has been very emotional lately. It has just been over a year since he was diagnosed (11-13-05). I try to get him to talk about things but being a boy and a teenager he doesn't share much. I have found great support here......It is good to know we are not alone. I have tried to locate support groups in my area for the whole family to attend. I think it would be nice for him to meet other kids who have D so maybe he would share his feelings with them. In the meantime I always make sure I am there if he needs to laugh or cry.........

[LantusFiend]

I haven't thought about it that way because it's so hard for me to demarcate when I had D from when I didn't. I was sick for a very long time before I was diagnosed, and I'm not sure when I first started getting symptomatic. I was diagnosed four and a half months ago, but I think I've had diabetes for about two years.
My four year old brother asked me the other day if I had diabetes when he was born, and I got choked up. :( That's not a frowny face, it's a trying not to cry face. I guess to him I'll always have been diabetic.