How often do you do it?

[payam7777777]

Mine happens on an ~every other day basis.
Crying i mean.

[Mama2H]

All out sobbing about everyother day. Silent tear fighting happens several times a day. I had a really bad moment today when we were giving a presentation to H's class when it really hit home that she will never be the same as she was before D. I lost it and had to leave the room. That was the first time I had a *public* breakdown. The rest of the time I have been able to conceal it from outsiders and my girls with the occasional silent tear.

[5miraclez]

Let's see, today was once. Yesterday none. The day before twice.

It's only been a little over a week so I would have to say almost daily. I cried the first day all the way to the hospital and all night long. It was also only the second time I've ever seen my DH cry. The first time was when she was born.

[mmc51264]

I don't cry all that much anymore, but certain things hit me. For instance, Zach will never be able to get life insurance. He better be able to get a good job because health insurance is going to be tricky, too. What gets me through is knowing that it could always be worse. He could have gotten a terminal disease or a brain tumor.

[Kirsten]

I cried almost every night for the first 4 months. I rarely cry now.

Kirsten

[Amy C.]

I am so different from the rest of you who posted. I cried when we left the pediatrician's office after diagnosis to go to the hospital. I was carrying Philip and he was alarmed as I don't cry often.

I haven't expressed my sorrow with tears since.

[madde]

I STILL cry everyday.

[Ellen]

I definitely thought you meant something else with that title to the thread....which would still be a good question with respect to couples with a child with diabetes;)

I don't cry - but I lose a lot of sleep.

[Twinklet]

I cried daily for the first month. Now it comes sporadically, but often hits me when I least expect it. Just realizing that almost everything in life will be a huge challenge for her is overwhelming. More than anything, I deal with a lot of anger. I don't sleep much OR well, and that is taking a toll on my body. I'm fighting depression and I'm not winning. I'm tired of being exhausted and knowing it won't ever end brings despair at times. I'm envious of friends who have healthy children, who can live care-free lives. I'm afraid to venture far from home with Emily, and.......I'm just plain exhausted. Tired of this disease already!

[RobinKop]

In the begining it was daily. :(

Now I would say maybe once a week usually because of something she says. She is so smart for a 4 year old. Some of the questions she asks about her diabetes just break my heart.

[Momof4gr8kids]

Sometimes daily, sometimes the tears will stay away for weeks, or months.

[MrsBadshoe]

I don't think I have ever cried about my kids having D. I have cried a few tears about our treatment by our kids school administration.

[Mariel's Mom]

I remember crying the first day I got Mariel home from the hospital. It was overwhelming and I was so afraid that I would never learn everything I needed to know. Suddenly I was alone and fully responsible. It was scary.

I can't say that I have cried since. Other than the first 2 hours she was in the hospital when they were sticking the IV's in her and she was so scared - Mariel has never since cried about her diabetes so I figure if she's not going to cry - how can I cry! BUT - I do get eye wetness sometimes out of frustration when I can't understand what her body is doing - she's going low when from what I can tell she shouldn't - suddenly she gets high numbers for a week and we are not doing anything different. You make adjustments and then find that everything changes back again - I want to scream! - Sometimes the more you know or learn about diabetes and the body can work against you because you have even more stuff you have to consider that could be causing the BG fluctuations that can get you exhausted when you think about all the possibilities.

And I get sad sometimes.. but I truly try to suck it in because I want to show her that everything is alright.

You guys know - I don't have to go on!

[Mom2Madi]

We are 6.5 mths into this. For the 1st 3 mths I cried every single day more than once a day. The next few months the crying still came but lessened with time. This month I'm back to crying quite a bit. We are having a hard time with control no matter how hard I try and I came to the realization a few wks ago that this was going to be our life (hard) for quite some time until her body settles down and things can run as smoothly as Diabetes will let it. Our Endo thinks maybe at the end of the honeymoon period (she's a unique case). So as we pass on sleepovers, certain foods, change basals every 4 days and now with the holidays here...the tears are back. I just want her to be carefree and be able to go to bed at night and just sleep instead of getting up 2x a night to tell me she feels low. She takes it all in stride but I take it harder.

[hanazumi]

Hi everyone. I quit crying. I don't try to understand why anymore. I decided to be thankful that I have the meter, the insulin, the diet products, that I am healthful to take care of my son. I decided to teach him that we must do the best we can to keep up, no matter what people say about D. I know that it's not easy, he complains about the shots, I've tried myself and I know that it hurts, but I try to show the bright side of all this things. I hope it helps him. That's all I can do for this moment... don't be sad about D, children can feel it... try to be positive, try to find a good point on having D.
:)

[payam7777777]

I don't cry all that much anymore...

I cried almost every night for the first 4 months. I rarely cry now.

I cried when we left the pediatrician's office after diagnosis to go to the hospital. I was carrying Philip and he was alarmed as I don't cry often.

In the begining it was daily. :(
Now I would say maybe once a week

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THIS is one of the things about D that i hate most. That we're 'getting used' to what was/is once considerred just unbelievable.

[TaeandTiff]

When I am alone, DH has Ayden, or they are outside playing, I just scream and go to the basement and make as much noise as possible, my husband is going to get me the entire kickboxing set for christmas to realease some of my anger, and get a good workout in the process. I need to cry more though that would be more effective than screaming

[Treysmom]

I cried from the pediatricians office to the hospital. Then I did'nt cry till we were both alone in the hospiatal room(he was sleeping). I shed tears all the time, I try not to let my children see me. I have had a reaaaally good cry recently(it was the 1st time I was alone since dx.) I worry about the future, but I try not to think about it all the time. I tear up alot reading here. I think its because I'm usually feeling the same @ the time when reading a post, or it bring up feelings.

[cydnimom]

I still cry at least once a week when I'm by myself. I get sad when he is having a bad day coping himself - like this morning - we decided that we needed to split his Lantus shot so that means 2 at breakfast. I didn't think he would make a big deal of it because he'll say stuff to me like "mom can I have ___ to eat, I'll take an extra needle", but I guess this time wasn't his choice. I get sad mostly when I think of the struggles I've had to overcome and what I have to do daily to myself and to him and then think how long I've been doing this and how long he will have to do it.

I still have a hard time speaking to anyone about his diagnosis without crying. I was asked to speak at a JDRF conference about being a parent with T1 and having a child with T1 - good thing I'm on the steering committe - I told them I couldn't do it without crying so would rather not at this time. I might change my mind down the road.

[hartpukas]

except I got terribley emotional over the summer for about a week - I was out of control. I think it was near the 1 year since diagnosis time and I just realized that this was our "forever" - always checking numbers, constantly monitoring food, midnight wake up checks, etc... It hit me real hard, real fast and whenever I was around other moms with toddlers - I was a mess! I think I was facing some serious envy due to the free flowing sippy cups with juice, milk or the constant flow of treats with no thought process that were being dealt out to all the kids around me and my daughter. Somehow I got over that hump and now I seldom cry. Then again, maybe it will be a yearly thing that I mourn the d all over again, I hope not. :cwds:

[bonhamx4]

I cried the day our son was diagnosed and a coupla times after that while in the hospital, about 2 months after diagnosed I got mad at the world and went into the garage to get my anger out and vent, ( I am not allowed in the garage now ). But The last time I cried was about 5 months ago when Steven sat down on the carpet with his glucometer kit and got out the meter, strips and inserted a strip in the meter and then poked himself and tried to scoop the blood on the meter. THAT was a hard day for me. My wife cried for the first week and off and on since then, espically when he does something with his Diabetes stuff.