StillMamamia
05-16-2008, 03:57 PM
**Knock, knock** I opened the door a bit and peek in…it’s crowded.
‘Come in Paula! Glad you joined us! Don’t be afraid!’ someone says.
I venture in, nervous…eeek! They are all looking at me with the CWD smile painted on their faces! :cwds:
‘So Paula, you’ve finally going to admit it, huh? That is very courageous of you! You’ll see the feeling of liberation you’ll have once you’ve done it!’ says another person.
Strange, I can hear their voices but can’t see them….oh, ok, I’ll open my eyes…sorry, I’m so nervous, I thought maybe if I close my eyes they won’t notice me coming in…it didn’t work!
I take a seat in the middle of the room…it’s the only seat…strange, it’s got my name of it, how did they know??
I look at them…put on my best CWD smile too, and open my mouth…they all lean forward in expectation…
I speak ‘Hi there everyone, my name is Paula and I’m….’ Oh the pain, the absolute pain in my mind….need a Tylenol, anyone have one, thanks.
Yes I get these headaches you see, and I need to take a break…ok, they allow me to go outside a bit…for some fresh air.
I step outside, and close the door behind me.
No, no, no…I can’t …no, I won’t. Gotta run, hide…but where??? Somewhere where they’ll never find me.
I run, run, run….there…PERFECT!!! I open the door and breathe slowly…then I open my eyes and see Twodoor2, and Wilf and Jacob’s Dad….staring at me…
’Are you lost, Paula?’.....I stare back, and see they’re comparing notes on extrapolating something or the other….
’Yes, I am lost’ I tell them, ‘I wanted to go somewhere where noone would find me, so I thought in this thread, ha, ha, but I guess you guys are in a serious discussion, so I’m on my way out.’
I step back out….’The Book Club…yes, there’s hardly anyone there!’ I run as fast I can…and open the first door. ‘Awesome, peace and quiet!’
‘Hi Paula…can I help you?’
Yikes…it’s Jeff…what’s he doing here?
‘Just checking the forums, Paula, don’t worry.’ He reads minds too...how??
‘I can see what you do when you’re logged on, Paula.’
‘Great!’ I say, and sheepishly back away, makind mental note to cut down on log-ins.
There’s no turning back. I have to get it over with.
Ellen’s right ‘The first step is the harness.’ Harness, did she say harness?? That’s weird….oh, the hardest, ok, I get it. I can’t think straight…
‘Breathe in, breathe out, move on’
‘Thanks Frizzyrazzy!’
‘You’re welcome!’
How did she???? Oh, never mind…..
Let’s just do it!!
I put my best foot forward…hesitate which one, don’t know if it’s the right one or the left one….so I did what anyone else would do…I jump with both feet together, and hop back to the first thread ‘Are you a CWD addict?’
I open the door, breathless (that hopping thing is really hard, you know?)…
They are all still there…all still with the CWD smiles, heads slightly tilted too.:cwds:
‘Glad you are back, Paula…take your time!’
Ok, here it goes…..
‘Hi, my name is Lara Croft, and I’m a CWD addict!’
‘PAULA!!!! Stop your silliness….you need to do this, it’s your sanity, rather, the lack thereof, that is at stake!’
Ok. Ok…they are right…
‘Hi, my name is….’ I pause, the urge to say ‘My name is what, my name is what, my name is what…Slim shady’ is too big…
Again…
‘Hi, my name is Paula, and I’m a CWD addict!’
Aplause all around.
‘We’re so proud of you! We’ve known that for a long time, but you needed to acknowledge it by yourself. Now, don’t you feel good?’
‘No…I need a drink!’ I mumble…I can’t breathe again…I’ve admitted defeat…I’ve lost all dignity…OMG, what have I done???
I run out of that thread and run towards a place where I could find solace….
There it is….I peek in, it’s quiet, but I know somewhere towards the end of it, there’s what I seek….
Big smile covers my face as I find the beer-drinking contest in Pavlos’ thread ‘Where are all the Dads?’ I’m so glad this thread wasn’t closed.
'CWD addict...what do they know???' ;)
‘Come in Paula! Glad you joined us! Don’t be afraid!’ someone says.
I venture in, nervous…eeek! They are all looking at me with the CWD smile painted on their faces! :cwds:
‘So Paula, you’ve finally going to admit it, huh? That is very courageous of you! You’ll see the feeling of liberation you’ll have once you’ve done it!’ says another person.
Strange, I can hear their voices but can’t see them….oh, ok, I’ll open my eyes…sorry, I’m so nervous, I thought maybe if I close my eyes they won’t notice me coming in…it didn’t work!
I take a seat in the middle of the room…it’s the only seat…strange, it’s got my name of it, how did they know??
I look at them…put on my best CWD smile too, and open my mouth…they all lean forward in expectation…
I speak ‘Hi there everyone, my name is Paula and I’m….’ Oh the pain, the absolute pain in my mind….need a Tylenol, anyone have one, thanks.
Yes I get these headaches you see, and I need to take a break…ok, they allow me to go outside a bit…for some fresh air.
I step outside, and close the door behind me.
No, no, no…I can’t …no, I won’t. Gotta run, hide…but where??? Somewhere where they’ll never find me.
I run, run, run….there…PERFECT!!! I open the door and breathe slowly…then I open my eyes and see Twodoor2, and Wilf and Jacob’s Dad….staring at me…
’Are you lost, Paula?’.....I stare back, and see they’re comparing notes on extrapolating something or the other….
’Yes, I am lost’ I tell them, ‘I wanted to go somewhere where noone would find me, so I thought in this thread, ha, ha, but I guess you guys are in a serious discussion, so I’m on my way out.’
I step back out….’The Book Club…yes, there’s hardly anyone there!’ I run as fast I can…and open the first door. ‘Awesome, peace and quiet!’
‘Hi Paula…can I help you?’
Yikes…it’s Jeff…what’s he doing here?
‘Just checking the forums, Paula, don’t worry.’ He reads minds too...how??
‘I can see what you do when you’re logged on, Paula.’
‘Great!’ I say, and sheepishly back away, makind mental note to cut down on log-ins.
There’s no turning back. I have to get it over with.
Ellen’s right ‘The first step is the harness.’ Harness, did she say harness?? That’s weird….oh, the hardest, ok, I get it. I can’t think straight…
‘Breathe in, breathe out, move on’
‘Thanks Frizzyrazzy!’
‘You’re welcome!’
How did she???? Oh, never mind…..
Let’s just do it!!
I put my best foot forward…hesitate which one, don’t know if it’s the right one or the left one….so I did what anyone else would do…I jump with both feet together, and hop back to the first thread ‘Are you a CWD addict?’
I open the door, breathless (that hopping thing is really hard, you know?)…
They are all still there…all still with the CWD smiles, heads slightly tilted too.:cwds:
‘Glad you are back, Paula…take your time!’
Ok, here it goes…..
‘Hi, my name is Lara Croft, and I’m a CWD addict!’
‘PAULA!!!! Stop your silliness….you need to do this, it’s your sanity, rather, the lack thereof, that is at stake!’
Ok. Ok…they are right…
‘Hi, my name is….’ I pause, the urge to say ‘My name is what, my name is what, my name is what…Slim shady’ is too big…
Again…
‘Hi, my name is Paula, and I’m a CWD addict!’
Aplause all around.
‘We’re so proud of you! We’ve known that for a long time, but you needed to acknowledge it by yourself. Now, don’t you feel good?’
‘No…I need a drink!’ I mumble…I can’t breathe again…I’ve admitted defeat…I’ve lost all dignity…OMG, what have I done???
I run out of that thread and run towards a place where I could find solace….
There it is….I peek in, it’s quiet, but I know somewhere towards the end of it, there’s what I seek….
Big smile covers my face as I find the beer-drinking contest in Pavlos’ thread ‘Where are all the Dads?’ I’m so glad this thread wasn’t closed.
'CWD addict...what do they know???' ;)